Refusing

Refusing to live anyone else's reality but my own

Refusing to bite the bait of drama

Seeing it, noticing what it brings in me

reminding myself that what arises in me is mine.

Being grateful for the invitation to get in touch with this sensation.

Embracing it, at first, as practice only,

not always loving it, not always wanting to…

Just being myself and doing what I know is for me.

Little by little experiencing the increase in curiosity,

the eagerness of the process

the anticipation of the promise.

Smiling at the awareness,

inviting myself to stay close, the closest I can get

so close I can now see it for what it is.

Not always fun, never easy, but ever so simple.

Refusing to live anyone else’s reality but my own, this sensation, here.